Based on a True Story...

I made up my mind for IT..! Yes I am going to tell her, how much she means to Me. I don't want to do anything poetic or cinematic in this occasion since it might be boring. All I want to do is - Do It in My Very Own Style! I am neither prepared nor too blank about what I am going to speak. I am just going to tell her straightly - It's now or never. I have been waiting for long, for this day to come! And now that it has finally come, I should not worry about the consequences of confessing my love to her.

I trimmed my beard to give myself a decent look and took my bike just to ensure that the cool breeze during the long drive will give me some guts. In fact, telling your best friend for 7 years, that you love her, needed some kind of courage, since it may be fateful.

Just as I saw her come out of her house, I remember the very first time I had seen her. The same place where she was waiting for my school van, with her mom. She has not changed much really with respect to the cuteness quotient! But the transformation from the school girl to the charming woman, walking towards me, has been amazing!

We had our lunch at the familiar Annapoorna - the place of her choice as usual. And we got ourselves a great scenic place to talk about this. I never gave any kind of hint beforehand and it is going to shock her for sure.

Like never before, I was a little nervous. All the 7 years of our beautiful relationship ran in front of my eyes. The Silly fights between us and the Silent caring that we had for each other, made us special.  We hadn't spoken a word until then and she was the one who broke the silence.

"Kailash, I am going to tell you something really important!"
A shiver of cold had engulfed my throat and I had to jerk it off!
"I am sorry for what I am going to tell you now, but I can't help it and I have to say!"

Well, what if she is trying to tell me what I had come half-prepared to tell her?! That would be the best moment of my life and I couldn't ask for more. I was all ears and she started.
"It's been 7 years since I met you the first time ever. We have been the Bestest of friends and You have always been there for me - be it my highs or lows! I never had anyone else, so important to me than You! I wonder if you thought of me like that..!"I was all smiles within myself. My heart was jumping out of joy. I couldn't believe her saying that! What's next? Please don't keep me waiting. Come on say it!

"You are the only person whom I shared every little thing with. You are one person who knows more about me than even myself. Again I am sorry for what I am doing right now. This is perhaps the worst thing I have done to You and our Friendship. I am sorry Kailash. "

Life is Crazy when two best friends end up without confessing their true love towards each other. But, here are we, speaking our minds out. The fact that our hearts beat with resonance is well understood by the time that we both of us chose to say IT! Yes! And that's why we are special! And I cannot be gifted more than this, when I am at the receiving end of a proposal! That too, from a person to whom I thought of doing the same!

"Friendship hasn't got an end. But ours is different, I am sorry it has to end here. And it's because of me and I am sorry again!"

She is going to erupt in laughter when I am going to tell her that I too came to tell her the same.

"Silly! Don't drag with your apologies. Tell me straightly!"
 I sported a mischievous smile and my eyes were locked on to hers!

This is the moment I had dreamt of, over the years and many things have changed, people have changed. But, my love has been the same!

"Hmm.. I made a Promise to my classmate Arjun....

It's surely going to shock you. Sorry! I started loving him since last year and told him about my love two months back! Everything went fine until he started feeling possessive about you. I tried explaining it to him several times, but I miserably failed!
He told me every time, 'A guy and a girl cannot stay as friends forever. At least one of them would have some feelings for the other.' And since I loved him, he said only you are bound to get that feeling for me.
I argued with him saying, 'My Kailash is not like that. He will never do such a thing to me - to me - because I am the one whom he most respected and cherished! So he will never betray me!' But he was stern and I had to respect his feelings too, you see. If being with you makes him feel possessive, then I have to do something else. And I decided upon it!"

I got myself prepared for what she was about to say. I had started crying inside, having come to know that she loved Arjun. More than that, I felt low of myself having destroyed her expectations that I am not a guy who would confess her about my love. I felt really bad since I had actually come there for doing that!

"Sorry da! We cannot be together here after. I don’t know how you are going to take it. It has never happened in my life. I betrayed our friendship though I think you will understand that I have no other choice. This is perhaps the last time that we are together. All these years, you were there for me. I know I am going to miss you for sure, but I haven't got an option. I will miss your presence in all walks of my life - the numerous silly fights that we had and the silent caring that we had for each other, which made us special!

Goodbye Kailash! I was gifted to have someone like you. Thanks for the small memories that you gave me. Thanks for all the good jokes that made me laugh to the fullest. Thanks for the tough times when you made me cry because of our fights. Thanks for emotionally bringing me up in life. Thanks for all the gifts, chocolates and I have a record collection of all those wrappers! Thanks for teaching me to live my life with pride."

She broke out with tears as she finished. I was speechless and she came near me. Even I had tears and I didn't realise it. I wished if it was all a bad dream or she was just playing a prank. But I saw her eyes and I decided against it. She hugged me tightly and held me for about 5 minutes. Those were the best 300 seconds of my life. My whole life was rewinding just as I closed my eyes! I wished I had told her a little time earlier, before she had met Arjun. I cried and sobbed because of the thought that I have to part with her. Is this the end??

I got very emotional and short of words. My heart was pounding and there was pain throughout. Finally I barely managed to speak..
"Well! You have always told me that there should be no "Thanks" & "Sorry" between friends! And I understood that our relationship has come to an end in the most unfortunate of all possible ways. It is really shocking me and I wonder who is going to bring me out of this Mood-Upset. Every time there was you, when I most needed someone to console me, when I felt bad!"

I couldn't complete what I was trying to tell her. I hugged her this time, more tightly and I felt her tears falling around my neck. I wondered what would have happened if I had succeeded in telling her what I had actually come to tell her..!

We saw each other for one final time, locked eyes for a few seconds and bid good luck to each other. I deleted her contact (named as Idiot) from my Mobile and showed her.
" I can erase you from my mobile. But, I cannot erase you from my mind! Goodbye Idiot! Thank you for the million memories that you gave me! Have a Great life ahead!"

We parted from each other and I started walking towards my Bike. She boarded an auto and I could see the yellow vehicle disappear out of my sight. There goes a woman whom I loved, like I did my own mother, cherished like my sister and respected like my Father. I don't stand a second chance to see her again. It seemed my world was coming to an end. I had never expected such a confession from her when I had come half-prepared to make one such thing to her. It may take some weeks for me to get back to normal. I cried for hours like never before. I started missing her just as I left her from that place.

Finally, I signed out from blogger and went out to celebrate my success! I posted it successfully on My Blog. Till date, I had only posted something that has happened in my life. Except today, when I have written something out of my own imagination! The title may seem quite inappropriate, but that's just to fool the readers as usual! I don't know what kind of response this story is about to get!

Thanks for Reading!

That's the End!!

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